25 July 2011

[the status of my status]. | newburyport, ma

It’s been recently pointed out that perhaps I shouldn’t be so “honest” when I put a facebook status out there because it makes me look like a jerk if I don’t follow through.
Well, what could I possibly say to that – it’s MY status I can say what I want, when I want, blah.blah.blah.
It makes me wonder too, why people even care what i say, or if I say for example that I am “breaking up with sugar” and I only last a week – it’s the truth and something I struggle with. I guess I wasn’t aware that there are some people that are emotionally affected by my status updates. But here’s the thing, I have spent a good portion of my life caring what others think about me and I’m exhausted by it. Down right could crawl up in a ball and go to sleep exhausted by it.
I’m a work in progress. I’m 99.9% sure I will always be a work in progress. You can’t please them all. I wasn’t put on this earth to please them all – now don’t get me wrong, I do agree that I say I’m going to do something and I don’t stick with it. Not all the time, but a lot of the time – and it’s usually based on things pertaining to moi. But that truly is my struggle – the follow through. Maybe I don’t think enough about myself to relish in the victory of success. But for whatever reason I guess it’s a part of me. Death and taxes will always be - here are some other things too:

v  Change is good
v  One day at a time only works one day at a time
v  Keep it to yourself
v  I love my girl more than anything else in the world
v  Photography feeds my soul
v  I live for books that you can’t put down
v  Carly Simon will always be my fav
v  I struggle with my weight, with exercise, with putting one foot in front of the other
v  I’m never happy with my hair
v  I regret not continuing my college education
v  I regret quitting piano
v  And while we’re on the regret path – I regret quitting ballet
v  I love Boston and had the best time of my life living there, but I wish I chose NYC instead
v  Mean people suck
v  I’m addicted to sugar
v  I miss my house
v  I love the ocean but I hate going to the beach
v  My mother told me “I could do whatever the hell I want to do” and I will
v  I will no longer care what you think about me
v  I love meeting new people
v  My closet is very unorganized, so are my drawers and so is my filing cabinet, ok… my entire house is unorganized
v  I have a hard time following through on anything for me
v  I give good advice. I don’t listen to my own.
v  I miss my mom. I will always miss my mom and if you don’t like it. Tough.
v  I watch reality tv. There I said it.
v  I mean well
v  I genuinely care about a lot of people and I genuinely dislike a lot of people too
v  I never finish my to do list
v  I still can’t fit into my jeans
v  I complain a lot about not fitting into my jeans
v  I’ll keep you posted on not fitting into my jeans
v  I have an incredibly generous family
v  I love to laugh
v  I’m pretty much stuck in the 80’s when it comes to music
v  I hate my couch
v  I don’t have a green thumb
v  I have a stack of domino magazines that I will never throw out
v  I have a lot of changes that I need to make
v  Oh and I’m breaking up with sugar again. You better alert the media, stop the presses, put it on your facebook status – judge me when I fail because it makes me feel so good.
v  I don’t care


reneemh said...

i love you, meg. you make me smile :)

E. Vining Photography said...

this was just downright pure awesomeness.

nissa said...

love you meg.. don't let anyone get you down. you're beautiful, strong, and no matter what you do with your life, you will always be a wonderful person and terrific mother. i just know.