[don't let's ask for the moon... we have the stars,"]

one of those lines that you never ever forget. the one line that stays with you long after the movie is over. the line that can make you cry your heart out. just sit down and cry your heart out.
yep, that was me last night. watching "now, voyager" starring bette davis, paul henreid and claude rains. crying my heart out as the screen faded to black and the music score by max steiner plays. bil and annie sound asleep on the couch. they obviously couldn't make it through the flick.
oh what a flick it is. one of my all time favs. of course, to me, anything starring bette davis is an all time fav.
1942, fabulous clothes. seriously, the.best.clothes.ever. and the famous cigarette scenes. where paul henreid [he plays jeremiah duvaux durrance, the handsome architect from rio]lights two cigarettes and gives one to charlotte vale or lights her cigarette while he is just looking so deeply at her. charlotte the once dowdy shy girl from Boston. oh it's enough to make me want to wear a hat and gloves and take up smoking.
i love this movie for so many reasons. mostly the memories it gives me. my mom and i always snuggled up and watched a good bette davis movie. mom turned me on to every single bette davis movie ever made. we loved the film noir movies too - rebecca, laura, -if you haven't seen rebecca or laura stop everything immediately and find them. a.maz.ing.
so i guess my little session last night of crying my heart out was the fantastic movie ending mixed with the memory of my mom and how much i miss her. sometimes it hits me like a freight train. guess it will never change. there's an empty hole in my world without her. and when i watched now, voyager - where the mother was so mean and controlling and horrid to her daughter, i remember how wonderful my mother was to me, so encouraging of being able to do anything i wanted in my life always. how i want my own daughter to know that.

anyway....a moment. a crying my heart out moment. but one of the best movies.



the untold want by life and land ne'er granted, now voyager sail thou forth to seek and find." walt whitman

[november morning]

thanksgiving is just the three of us. a quiet day - we make breakfast - watch the parade - go for a nice long walk along the river. today we stopped for hot chocolates along the way - annie and i like to hunt for pine cones that we can glitter for the holidays. this morning there were none. they were all hanging onto their branches. not sure if it's the warmer temps but we'll try again another day. we cooked a delicious meal - watched movies. it's so nice not to have to travel. i do miss my family - we're scattered everywhere. but the good thing about having a heart is the ability to fill it with all kinds of love. i am so thankful for so many things, good health, good friends, my family and wonderful memories. oh how i love november.

[here are some images from our walk]

{life moment} friday

rough week. rough month. rough times. it's been tough that's for sure and i know i'm not the only one. just a bit tired of the struggle and i'm ready for the happy so bring it on.

happy weekend all.

"i'm looking forward to looking back from further on down the track." {c. simon}